This week, this month, this year have been a struggle. Being an event planner, my job can be very demanding and very high stress. There are 80 balls you are trying to juggle and each one is equally as important. These last few months have been at 100 mph while juggling 80 things, and trying to live life. I had been doing a pretty good job at juggling it all, until this week.
I have been working so hard to be positive every day. But, this week I had to learn the tough lesson that not every day is going to be positive. There are going to be those days where it just sucks. Your job, your health, everything. My day was Tuesday.
This week had already started a little rough for me with some ongoing health issues coming back to the surface making me feel like garbage. Already feeling under the weather did not help when it came to work. I felt like I could not complete any tasks and just utterly defeated about halfway through Tuesday. And then I did the smartest thing ever (heavy sarcasm), and let every negative thing leading up to that point get in my head. By the time I got home late Tuesday night, I had a migraine and wanted nothing more than a do-over on the week. Did I mention Tuesday was also a full moon? Yep, I didn’t stand a chance.
Wednesday I tried to start the day out a little more positive. Listened to some uplifting music while getting ready. But, that funk just was still with me. It was a little better day but still not an overly positive day. Then today I decided I was going to make it a better day. I took a little bit more time getting ready to make myself feel better. I went into work with an outlook of “just get done what you can and what is needed”. I caught a little of the start of March Madness in the afternoon and found myself in much better spirits by the time I left work and headed to an information session at my church about the new campus they are working on in Ohio.
And while our Pastor was telling us about the progress they are making with the project he talked about momentum. How important it is to keep it. How important it is to recognize it. How the enemy will seek to destroy when it is lost.
This week I let my momentum stop. I let my momentum go because I felt defeated. I let my momentum fizzle out because of a few negative vibes. This week I defeated myself. Not my health, not my job, not my relationships, the blame on defeat was all on me.
So take each day at a time and know that it might not be a positive day. But you cannot let that stop you. You can not let the momentum of your life stop because of one bad moment, one bad day, one bad week. What could have my week have been if my momentum had not been stopped? I can’t dwell on that, but I can learn from it and start tomorrow with a new found momentum.
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